Ye Cove

I fucking want to kill someone right about now!
Megadeth's Good Mourning/Black Friday would be my themesong!
Feels like my luck has run out on me..

I confess that I fucking hate writing a riff that sounds awesome on first listen, but then upon listening to it like a day later, it sounds like shit.

How about sprucing it up or watering it down a bit then?

I confess that fuck life right now. Hate to seem like an emo on ye olde boards ( ), but I'm not gonna lie, life's just gotten really depressing, monotonous, and doesn't seem to be getting any better any time soon.

Edit: FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUU I have to endure sitting through Twilight again... mom brought the fucking DVD home to watch... the comp is right beside the TV.

Rough man very rough. But you seem to be missing some very awesome things happening in the near future. LOG/COB/AILD and Mayhem/Marduk/Cattle Decapitation and MY PARTY THIS SATURDAY WHERE WE ARE GETTING DRUNK AS FUCK AND ROCKING OUT!

Only thing getting me through tbh is the thought of seeing some metals, hanging out with ye buds, and getting Swayzed up.

You lucky fucktards!
But whatever, I'm getting my fucking life back on track!

That's awesome man good job!

Here begins a long rant. I figured this would be the place to do it. And, this will also explain why I haven't been around so much.

Stress is a funny thing. I passed out at school last week from exhaustion and slight dehydration. I'm going through a lot right now, some things that I feel like I can't talk to ANYONE about (I can but...you know the feeling where no one will listen?) and just tired the fuck out. And on top of that, many amazingly awesome things are happening on top of all the bad things so it's just like I'm caught under the emotional Wheels of Confusion (see what I did there?? ) My band has a show this coming Saturday though and we sold all of our tickets which is awesome, and we've (my band) gotten some great news and some even better hookups, so we could be on a PRO level in like a year if everything works out which is an incredible feeling. We have impressed some people in the record industry and gotten some really awesome feedback-two people in the industry went as far as to say that if we got a singer, which is something we have been trying to do, we could easily get signed and one said "I could easily see this on metal radio." I'm not trying to gloat here, just excited is all.

With this has come a lot of stress-a scramble to find a good singer, setting up shows, practice 20 hours a week on top of working and school. As it seems to always be, everything happens all at once, and it's not any one thing that is stressing me out, just everything. Work is hard lately because whenever I get there there's always bullshit going on and it doesn't make for a desireable place to work. School has gotten to the point where I had to drop two of the classes I'm taking in college just to be able to breathe. I'm dissapointed that I had to do that, but I really had no other choice-it was either I drop two of my four classes or I fail out completey. This in combination with even more stuff which is more personal that I won't bore you guys with is really putting a strain on me and I keep getting sick-and depressed. And like any true American sterotype, when I get depressed, I turn to food and I've been eating way too much and it worries me that once things start going better, I won't be able to stop. I'm getting quite large you see but it scares me because it's like the only thing that comforts me. And wrestling sucks now which is depressing beause I love wrestling. haha.

Rant over...sorry to spew so much on here. And BTW, hope shit is improving for you, Butt.

Good luck man! And congrats!
Also, stay strong, it's gotta ease up somewhere *nodnod*

Indeed, what Noli said. Stay strong man.

However, when it comes to depression, I know it's gonna make me sound preachy, which is not my intention, but I'd channel it into something productive. I've taken to walking, for example; back in September, I used to be a fucker with a massive gut. I started going for walks at night every second night or so. I've lost roughly 25 pounds since then... I only weigh 140 lbs now.
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I confess that as of late, my eyesight during the night has been getting poorer and poorer. During the day I have pretty near perfect vision. But at night, everything's just a dark blue blur pretty much.

My mother, who has the same condition, thinks I might have myopathy in my eyes... which means I might need glasses. This saddens me because a lot of people look good in glasses. I do not.

Could you get contacts instead of glasses for the myopathy? They take a little getting used to, but they're really nice once you do.

I have really sensitive eyes. I can't even place my fingers near my eyes without them watering in irritation, so as much as I'd like contacts, it's not really an option for me.

I don't really mind contacts. At first the idea of sticking something in my eyes sounded quite bad but now it's not that much of a problem. Still, I can't wait to get my new glasses...

Ohh yeah, I didn't go to school today cause I had a hangover. I had a bit to drink yesterday and had a man-to-man talk with my stepdad about guns and the army life and stuff, twas good times.

Yeah, I'm a bit anxious tbh. I wanna find a pair that I look good in, though, and try out more lens strengths, before I decide to go through with wearing them all the time.



As I said on ye olde MSN, that's actually pretty legendary. For my birthday I think I'm gonna drink a lot with my dad.